Life and Puberty Summary: This story is about my puberty years starting from a brief toddler section and ending with the years 13 and 14. This story may show sexual content. By the time you read this I will have had one week of High School done. When I was younger I lived with my grandma. Same old way everyday: I would get up eat, crap, sleep, watch T.V., and then I would leave at 5 p.m. In my child years I never made any social interaction. This has affected me now in puberty. When my brother was born I was curios why he wore bulky underwear. So like any 8-year-old I took one and tried it one. It was great. And for 2 months every night I would put one on and pee and shit in it. Then I was caught and had to stop. Then after three years my brother went to preschool. I saw the bulky underwear again. I had to have one so I took one. But then I was caught again. In my elementary years (2 and 5 grade) I had a pee problem. In second grade I had just eaten a big lunch. I class I had to poop. I was movie day so I didn’t want to miss anything so I held it. Then I was sweating. Ugh Ugh then… Poop. And everyone smelled it. Thank God everyone forgot after summer. Then in Fifth grade we had president reports. I drank a lot of water before so I had to go. I was last on the list so I had to wait. It was torture. First I just held it. Then I was doing the pee-pee dance in my chair. Ugh Ugh I was hurting now so I grabbed my crotch and then… I felt some got out so u put my big sweater on. Then I was called up. While I was reading all you can see is me bending over to hide me growing wet mark. And so everyone forgot after summer. Then now in puberty... I was 13 years old. I had a computer in my room so I went on it. This is rare because I never had anything god to look at on it. I first looked up some star wars stuff. Then I remembered from 2 years ago my accident so I looked up pee pants. I clicked on the video I thought best described me. I could my penis get hard right away. Then I felt the room get hot I was sweating. I kept looking at pee videos. Then I had to go to bed. My dick was so hard. Then in the summer I was still looking up pee vids but then I remembered diaper. So I looked up adult diapers. OMG my dick got really hard. My underwear became tight so I took them off. For the first time I saw my pubic hair. Then I touched my red dick. I tingled. Then I went to bed. The next night I got some of my brother’s underwear. They wear tight so I imagined them as me as a baby and they were diapers. I also imagined being the youngest and having 2 older brothers and we were naked except me. Then I had to pee in the middle of the night so I went. Then I saw that my dick was hard. I remembered in school kids talking about masturbation. I went on the computer to research it. And I came to xtube.com I saw how to do it. So I got in bed and rubbed my dick up and down. Then after 5 min I cummed for the first time. And for 3 months and summer I would buy diaper masturbate in them pee my pants masturbate in them. I would look at this girl get fucked by 2 guys and I would masturbate. Diapers were my fetish all of my 13 year. Then when I turned 14 I got interested in the male penis. So I looked up mutation on xtube.com I became twice as hard. Lol. I got so into the penis I signed up for accounts and everything. So my daily routine was to look up diapers and masturbation. Soon diapers fell and I wanted to met some my age in diapers and masturbate and I found two sites: Deeker for diapers and xtube/ichatgay for masturbation. Then I learned about privacy and stop. I just kept Deeker and bambiboys. Then just 2 month ago my cousin rubbed my crotch and we jerked and sucked every time we saw each other. Now I’m lost. I don’t want to be gay but the male gets me aroused. I’m starting high school and I don’t want to be a loser I barley talk so that is even worse. I’m lost. I’m giving people my address and I want to stop but I can’t stop. I need a friend that is a boy because all my life I have had girls as my friends. I don’t know how to be a friend to a boy. Now I’m going to an all boy school HELP. I need a friend. My aim is rydchrist93 and email is rydchrist93@aol.com.