    THE START OF IT ALL

    	This is the first memories I have of wearing diapers. I was
    about five years old at the time and had always wet the bed most
    nights. My mom and dad never scolded or punished me for it, they
    would just get me up in the morning and change the bedding put dry
    pants on me and get on with the there day. My mother had taken me
    to the doctor for it and he said it was normal and I would grow
    out of it. The only thing that me folks did to deal with it was to
    put a plastic cover on my mattress.
    	One day we drove up to my aunts house for a visit. I remember
    it was several hours drive and I thought we would never get there.
    We pulled up in the driveway and they came out to greet us, they
    had a boy the same age as me and two daughters that were about
    seven and nine, I think. I guess I had seen them before but I was
    too little to remember.
    	It was late in the day when we arrived and we had dinner and
    me and Kenny played in the back yard till after dark. Aunt Mary
    said it was time to take a bath and get into bed and she would be
    up in a few minutes. We went to the bathroom and got in the tub.
    when we dried off I put my underwear back on but Kenny just walked
    to the bedroom naked. He took the bed and I took the rollaway they
    had put out for me, He crawled under the covers without putting
    any pants on. It seemed a little strange but I just figured that's
    how he liked to sleep.
    	A few minutes later Aunt Mary came in and said, "let's get
    you guys ready for bed." She walked over to the dresser and opened
    a drawer and at the same time Kenny pushed his covers off. She
    reached in the drawer and took out a folded diaper and white baby
    pants . I hadn't noticed before the can of baby powder on top of
    the dresser, she picked it up and two blue diaper pins and stuck
    them in the front of her blouse. I had never thought anything
    about diapers before that and was stunned when I saw her with
    them. She walked over to Kenny's bed and sat on the end, She put
    the baby pants and powder to the side as Kenny spread his legs far
    apart and she put the diaper right below his butt. "up you go" she
    said and Kenny pushed his bottom in the air as she slid the diaper
    under him. He was acting like this was a perfectly normal routine
    and I wasn't even in the room. I couldn't believe what I was
    seeing and continued to stare as she sprinkled the baby powder on
    him.
    	She was pulled the diaper up between his legs and smoothed it
    out, Kenny looked like he was enjoying it! !WOW! Was he nuts or
    what? By this time I was so totally stunned I couldn't take my
    eyes off them.
    	Taking one side of the diaper and overlapping it as she
    removed a pin from the front of her and fastened it into the
    cloth, She pulled the other side closed and pinned it shut. The
    diaper was so overwhelming he looked dwarfed by it. It was about
    the brightest white cloth I had ever seen. She put both hands on
    his knees and said, "that better?" Kenny said, "ya, lots better."
    Well, that answered my question, HE WAS NUTS! I almost giggled but
    thought better of it. Next came the baby pants. She picked them up
    and gently shook them out as Kenny lifted his feet. First over one
    foot then the other, She pulled them up as far as they would go in
    the front and then rolled him to one side as she pulled the back
    up. She repeated this on the other side and then pulled the front
    the rest of the way up, next while gently lifting him by each
    thigh and reaching under him she covered the back of his diaper
    completely. I could see the diaper and blue pins through the milky
    white pants. Bending over she gave him a kiss on the forehead and
    he rolled over with his well padded bottom toward me and she
    covered him up.
    	Getting up from Kenny's bed she looked over at me and smiled
    as she walked back to the dresser. I was trying to act as if I
    hadn't seen any thing but my look of stunned amazement had to
    show. Suddenly alarm bells went off as I watched her reach into
    the drawer and take out two yellow diaper pins hooked together,
    she unfastened them and put them in the front of her blouse just
    as she had the blue ones. next came a second diaper and another
    pair of baby pants. I started to panic and run downstairs to mom
    but then stopped and let out a big sigh of relief when she walked
    back to Kenny's bed , Boy did I feel stupid, she was just getting
    another one out to change him later. !WRONG!
    She picked up the can of baby powder off his bed and came back to
    me. "I DON'T WEAR DIAPERS" I told her. It's alright, she said and
    started to pull the covers down, I held them tight and stopped
    her. " She sat down on the edge of the bed "I talked to your mom
    and she said it's ok for you to wear it."
    	I told her I didn't believe it, so she stepped out in the
    hall and called for my mom to come up. When she came in Aunt Mary
    said, " I need a little help here." See, I told ya," mom said.
    "Honey aunt Mary doesn't want her bed getting wet so she is going
    to let you wear some of Kenny's diapers while your here."
    	"NO, put a plastic cover on the bed," I said.
    	"Aunt Mary doesn't have any covers and I would feel terrible
    if you ruined her mattress, so you're getting a diaper on and
    that's the end of it. Whenever mom used the phrase, "that's the
    end of it" it was! I couldn't believe she had said it. All my
    ability to resist was shattered as mom pulled the covers down and
    removed my underwear. I almost started to cry as she got hold of
    my ankles and lifted my bottom up while Mary put the diaper under
    me. I closed my eyes as the baby powder was being sprinkled on.
    "It will just be for a couple of nights," mom said. COUPLE OF
    NIGHTS!!!! I didn't think I was going to make through the next
    five minutes.
    	When Mary brought it up between my legs I wanted to reach
    down to push it away but knew better than to try. I was shocked at
    how unbelievably thick it was. Even after seeing Kenny's diaper I
    wasn't prepared for it. As aunt Mary brought it down across the
    front of me I was in for a bigger shock, it felt so very, very
    soft and warm. How could something this awful this possibly feel
    so good. I opened my eyes as she removed a pin from her the blouse
    and pulling the first side together pinned it. When she fastened
    the other side it was as if the cloth had completely enveloped me.
    My legs were forced apart and the even the slightest movement was
    an instant reminder of it. My face turned a bright red and my
    heart was trying to pound out of my chest. Mom standing at the
    foot of the bed said, "just calm down she'll done in a minute."
    	I looked over at Kenny and he was grinning from ear to ear.
    Mom handed the baby pants to aunt Mary, who put them on me the
    same way she did Kenny's. When she finished I glanced down at them
    and they looked gigantic and were puffed out all over. The
    whiteness of the diaper and the yellow of the pins just barely
    visible through the vinyl. I began feeling a weird tingling
    sensation all over. Both mom and aunt Mary gave me a kiss and mom
    whispered, "don't you dare take that off tonight." I rolled over
    dying of embarrassment and in complete bewilderment as mom gave me
    a couple of pats on the rear and now it was my turn to show my
    well padded bottom as she covered me up.
    	They turned the lights out and left. Slowly I started to calm
    down and felt completely worn out. I knew I was powerless to
    change my situation and so reluctantly began to accept it. I
    rolled on my back as my hand brushed against the baby pants. I
    instantly yanked it back as if it had touched something hot. I
    didn't move for the longest time then gradually the urge to touch
    it overtook me. I slowly put my hand on the front of the pants and
    the vinyl felt smooth soft and cool, For a while I was content
    with touching the diaper pins through the soft plastic. I lifted
    my knees up a little and felt around the back where the vinyl was
    gathered up by the leg elastic, it was all blossomed out from the
    bulk and thickness of the diaper, my rear felt absolutely huge.
    Wiggling around very carefully so I wouldn't attract Kenny's
    attention I continued to explore this new experience.
    	When I was sure Kenny was asleep I quietly got out of bed and
    walked or I should say waddled around in it till I heard my folks
    coming up the stairs. Quickly getting back in bed I pretended to
    be asleep and mom quietly came in put her hand on the covers to
    make sure I hadn't taken it off. When she left and closed the door
    I heard her tell my dad, "so far so good." The warmth and softness
    gently lulled me to sleep. I was hooked.
    	The next morning mom and Mary came into our room. I was out
    cold. I awoke to see Kenny get out of bed and stand up. Mary
    pulled down one side of the baby pants and removed a pin, the
    diaper and pants slid to the floor as one as he stepped out of it.
    She took the other pin out of it and put some underwear on him.
    Watching this it suddenly occurred to me that I was wearing one,
    too.
    	This is the first morning in a long time that I hadn't woke
    up at the bottom of the bed. I had a habit of moving down there
    during the night to get away from the wet part of the sheet. Mom
    got me up and started unpinning me the same way. I really didn't
    think I was wet till she slid it down and the cool air hit me. At
    that point I never wanted to go back home.
    	Me and Kenny played all that day and he never said a word
    about diapers and neither did I. That night it was my turn first.
    I couldn't wait for the diaper but my face was so flushed with
    embarrassment that Mary said, "Oh, come on now it's not that bad!"
    Push your covers down and take off you underpants for me. I did.
    	OK ready? up you go!" It was the same as the night before,
    the butt goes up, the diaper goes under, the powder gets
    sprinkled, the pins go in, the baby pants go on, BINGO YOUR IN
    HEAVEN. Kenny said, "he's, better, huh mom?"
    	I looked at him and he had that same grin on his face. Boy
    was I better! And like him last night I was so absorbed on being
    diapered I had forgot he was there. As I watched her diaper him
    while laying there with mine on I would have started purring if I
    was a cat.
    	The next night was our last one before going home. It started
    out the same, bath first then to bed. Mary came in and started
    diapering Kenny. When she finished she said good night and left
    the room. I was devastated. Then my mom came in a few minutes
    later and went to the dresser and started gathering up the
    supplies. I became very nervous because Mary had done all the
    diapering up till now except for the first night when mom came up
    to help.
    	She came over and sat everything at the foot of the bed and
    said, "are you ready?" I sheepishly nodded my head yes. "uncover"
    I did as I was told but kept my underwear on. "Does having a
    diaper on at night help you sleep better?" I shrugged my shoulders
    because I was too afraid to tell her the truth.
    	"Well, I haven't heard you moving around in your bed in the
    middle of the night like you do at home." I kind of nodded. She
    reached down and pulled my underpants off. Handing me the diaper
    pins and saying hold these for me she picked up the diaper and got
    started. She was even better than Mary, pinning it just right,
    snug enough to stay in place but yet loose enough to be really
    comfortable.
    	"Stand up for me," she said. Slipping the baby pants over one
    foot at a time she brought them up in one continuous motion.
    Pulling me to her she gave me a long hug while and patting my
    heavily diapered bottom and the sound was wonderful. She put me
    back down in the bed. Slipping a finger in each leg band she
    worked them up higher then rolled me over for a quick peek to make
    sure no part of the diaper was sticking out.
    	"You get a good nights sleep," and after a kiss she left.
    	We left early the next morning for home. We arrived a little
    after noon and mom fixed us some lunch. After we finished eating
    mom picked up the car keys and said lets go to the store. I got in
    the car with her and we went to a large department store in town.
    I was riding in the basket as we went down the aisles.
    We turned down another row and it was all baby stuff. We went
    about half way and stopped. Mom reached up and took a package off
    a peg and handed them to me. They were Dorsey baby pants in
    toddler 3X size with six pairs in it. I was frozen.
    	"Well, yes or no? It's up to you." I was trying to get the
    words out of my mouth but couldn't make a sound. She said, "if its
    yes," put them in the cart. I almost threw them in and she pulled
    down a second package and put them in. Next she picked out two
    cards of diaper pins with four sets in yellow and four more in
    blue. The baby powder went in next. We went to the checkout stand
    and paid for everything and drove home. All the way I wanted to
    ask "what about the diapers?" but couldn't bring myself to do it.
    	After we got in the house mom asked dad to get a large
    plastic bag from the garage rafters she had stored there. With bag
    in hand mom said lets go up to your room. She dumped the bag on
    the floor next to my bed and it was all baby clothes and diapers
    and vinyl pants. "These were yours when you were a baby," she
    said. She sorted out all the clothes and baby pants saying too
    small they won't fit you and put them back in the bag.
    	All the diapers went on my bed and she took the smaller pre-
    folds and tossed them toward the bag. What was left was a large
    pile of flat fold diapers. She started putting three of them
    together at a time and fold them in to one complete diaper. After
    a few minutes she had about a ten done when she got to the last
    one.
    	"I'll keep all this stuff in the hallway closet so none of
    your friends will see it." I helped her take it to the closet and
    we put it on the top linen shelf.
    	That night when mom started diapering me I only had one thing
    that was still bothering me, I asked mom if dad thought I was a
    baby for wearing them. He hadn't said a word to me about it and I
    thought he was mad at me.
    	"Son, let me tell you something. We talked about putting you
    in diapers many times, but your father didn't think you would want
    to try them. We knew Kenny used them and your dad figured if you
    saw someone your own age in diapers and not upset or embarrassed
    by it maybe we could get you to try them. We called Aunt Mary and
    she thought it was a good idea, too. That's the main reason we
    went up there. So the answer is no, he doesn't think your a baby.
    But he's glad you tried them and like them and are not waking up
    soaking wet in the middle of the night anymore."
    	She had finished and said, "why don't we go downstairs and
    you can give him a big hug and kiss, I know he'd like that very
    much. Mom I can't go down there with a diaper on! Sure you can.
    Like I said it was his idea.
    	Reluctantly I got out of bed and waddled to the door and mom
    gently pushed me into the hallway. Very slowly I started down the
    stairs praying dad wouldn't hear the rustling sound of the baby
    pants and look around. I went to the side of his chair making sure
    the arm blocked his view and told him I had a hug for him. He
    turned in the chair and picked me up stood me on his lap.
    	"All ready for bed?" he asked. I nodded my head yes and he
    gave me a bear hug. He rubbed and patted my rear for a minute then
    said, "it's late, so lets get you in back in bed," and he got up
    with me in his arms and I gave mom a kiss goodnight. He carried me
    back to bed covered me up and said, "you know I love you."
    	"I know," I replied. He turned out the lights and closed the
    door. Now I was totally at peace.
    	I only wore diapers in bed never around the house with one
    exception. Mom and dad loved to go to the drive-in movies and I
    always fell asleep in the back seat long before it was over. My
    dad was very careful to keep the car spotless inside and out. Once
    I fell asleep at the movies and wet the seat. After that I was
    always sitting on a thick blanket at the movies. Well, mom had a
    better way to go now. She would put a diaper on me with my PJ's
    and a robe. It was fun to wear it right under everyone's nose but
    I never would go to the snack bar.

    PART TWO

    	It was about two months later when my parents said we were
    going on the train to Ohio to see Aunt Grey. The trip would take
    three days and we would be staying about two weeks. I asked mom,
    "what about my bedwetting?" and she said I would still wear
    diapers at night and not to worry about it, things would be fine.
    	We boarded the train and we had a cabin all to ourselves.
    They called it a Pullman car. It had a couch that made into a bed
    and another one above it that folded up during the day and a small
    sink and toilet. The first night after we ate dinner and returned
    to the cabin mom said they would get the top bunk ready for me and
    I could lie up there and watch the scenery till I fell asleep. Dad
    got the bunk undone and mom put me on the couch and opened up one
    of the suitcases and brought out a diaper and baby pants.
    	"Mom, it's not even dark yet!"
    	"Let's get it on you now so I won't have to wake you to do it
    later."
    	After I was diapered dad lifted me to the top bunk and
    covered me up. It was warm and I pushed the covers off soon after
    that. The next morning mom took the diaper off me and put it in a
    plastic bag . For three nights it felt great to be diapered right
    after dinner and lie in bed watching out the top of the window
    while the world went past till I fell asleep, which usually didn't
    take too long with the rocking motion of the train.
    	When we arrived Aunt Grey and Uncle Steve met us at the
    station. We put all the bags in the station wagon and started for
    their house. All four of them talked and joked most of the way and
    I could tell they were all very happy to see each other.
    	I was way to small to remember them but felt like I had known
    them all along. When we got to the house we went inside and I
    found out they had two daughters, Debby 10 and Cathy 15. Mom and
    dad hugged and talked to the girls for a few minutes and the both
    of them came over to me and hugged me and started saying things
    like, "isn't he cute." I liked them but felt embarrassed by the
    attention they were giving me.
    	Later that day after we got settled in mom said she needed to
    do some laundry from the trip. I went outside a little after that
    to look around and play with their dog and when I got to the back
    yard on the clothesline was hanging some of mom and dad's clothes
    and a row of my diapers and baby pants. Mom was with Aunt Grey so
    I couldn't say anything to her without being heard and I didn't
    want to draw attention to them because they were on the outside
    row away from the house and you couldn't see them unless you came
    into the back yard. I prayed no one but mom would come out there
    and went back inside and held my breath. Later mom took a basket
    out and gathered up all the clothes and took them up to our room.
    I went up behind her and said, "why did you put my diapers out
    there so they could be seen?"
    	"Aunt Grey knows about the diapers, so just take it easy."
    	Maybe this wasn't going to be such a fun visit after all I
    thought.
    	I slept in a sleeping bag on the floor and mom and dad took
    the bed. Mom would wait till right at bedtime to get me ready. One
    night after getting in bed about fifteen minutes later I heard mom
    let out a yell down stairs and start laughing. I started listening
    really carefully and heard her say something about lightning bugs.
    I figured they were watching cartoons or something because being
    from the west coast I didn't think they were real. Mom said, "he's
    got to see this," and I heard Cathy say, "I'll get him."
    	A few seconds later Cathy came bursting into the room and
    said, "wait till you see this," and pulled the covers off me and
    picked me up and started down the stairs. All I was wearing was a
    diaper and baby pants. The suddenness of it all and shock at being
    brought out in front of everybody like that made me feel like a
    deer in the headlights. Mom said, "see them over there in the
    bushes?"
    	I was so stunned that the girls weren't teasing me about
    being in diapers and their mom and dad acted as if they hadn't
    even noticed that I hadn't paid any attention to what mom had
    said. Cathy said, "see them right there by the bush?"
    	I looked over and saw a bunch of blinking lights and couldn't
    figure out what they were.
    	"See the lightning bugs?"
    	My mouth fell open and I was so surprised I completely forgot
    about my situation. Cathy took me over to the bush and put me down
    and said "hold still for a minute." and they will come back. I
    stayed out there for close to an hour while both families sat on
    the porch.
    	After that night I didn't worry about diapers any more. All
    the grown ups were going to Cincinnati to tour some soap factory I
    think it was Proctor and Gamble and then go over into Kentucky for
    something else. Mom said Cathy would baby-sit me and they would be
    back really late. After lunch Cathy said, "let's put you down for
    a nap and you can stay up late to watch lightning bugs tonight."
    	Sounded like a good trade to me and I started upstairs to lie
    down. She pulled me by my hand into the front room and put me on
    the couch and said to Debby, "go get me his diaper."
    	I didn't wear them for naps and I hadn't occurred to me that
    Cathy instead of mom would be diapering me that night. I told her
    I didn't wear them for naps and she said, "better safe than
    sorry."
    	She took my clothes off me. Debby came back and watched while
    Cathy powdered and diapered me. I fell asleep on the couch and was
    dry when I woke up. Debby asked if I was wet and I said no. They
    just left it on me the rest of the afternoon and just before
    dinner I had to pee really bad and used the diaper. As soon as I
    did it I panicked thinking they would tell mom and she would have
    a fit. I tried to conceal the fact that the diaper was wet but I
    guess the way it was hanging or something gave it away and Cathy
    said, "let's go upstairs and get you a fresh diaper."
    	I asked, 'are you going to tell mom?" and she said no. After
    dinner they gave me a bath and put a heavy overnight diaper on me
    and we went outside to play with the lightning bugs. It was a
    pretty good visit after all.